The same old growing up tale, you head back to the hometown for a couple days, and you end up nostalgiacing your self to death. It was interesting seeing some people who i hadn't seen in many years, to drink with them, to catch up. My number of weddings this summer is up to two already. Change strikes swiftly, it's so easy to not pay attention and end up completely adrift when you finally have some frame of reference, of measurement. I went and bought a car on friday. It's nice, but it's strange to see, I'm committing myself to a lifestyle that's allows for no change in years.

The future is haunting me like the past. The love of my life and I have plans to marry, raise kids, and buy matching tombstones (well, she doesn't know that yet, but it's not something we regularly discuss), but our other sideways plans are starting to drift. Too busy, too much work, too much school, something that will never change because we work so hard to allow ourselves to be able to spend short periods of time together which only end up being once or twice a year. I like driving, because it means i get to spend that time talking.

Stop growing up. Pull out that purple hair dye and flip the finger at time. Don't lose that immaturity, revel in your youth before it fades. Be spontaneous, do stupid things, but don't waste your time, don't stagnate, life is short, so make every moment worthwhile...this all said as i climb into bed early to attend work for 12 hours tomorrow...

I've been a skeptic of these things since they came about, but i've slowly started to be won over by reading into the thoughts and lives of a few friends. Thusly, i thought it to be perhaps a neat idea to have a place to record publicly some ideas, artistic and philosophic, which could be thus open for scrutiny and criticism...of which i'd likely ignore anyhow :). But, we'll give it a try, i don't think i'm gonna publicly open this site til i've a few entries down, but it should be a good place to see what i'm doing artistically, as well as display some pictures, and maybe record my headspace, music and such...so, this is a test run, personally, i'm gonna be the cynic and say i'll do this for a week and then never again, as well as that the only ones who'll actually visit this site will be in the small little group of blogs that already exist...

anyhow, i think i'll try and do one today or tomorrow that actually has some relevance...whatever...